Friday Coffee Musings…
It is FRIDAY BABY!!! And I’m off, for 3 wonderful days that will have wonderful weather to enjoy. In fact, MARVELOUS weather! I’m sitting here at my desk with the window open, breeze gently blowing and drinking my favorite beverage, coffee. Life is simply amazing! The last time I was off 3 days in a row, well I was sick and in bed so that doesn’t really count for much outside of sleeping.
I slept in today, 10 hours, 12 minutes of deep, restful sleep. That too was outstanding and energizing.
Last step of the current hooker project is putting the border on this gorgeous baby blanket, then blocking it before it goes up for sale. Blankets 5 & 6 are in production, as well as ruffle scarves, washcloths, baby booties and some other items. Once we have the suggest minimum of 10 items the store front will go live. Seriously, who wants to shop a store that only has one or two items? Um, no one really, I’d keep walking by that one in any mall. Same as online, if you don’t have things to browse, you won’t get much business.
Being away for a few days sick really made me miss my sweet old souls at work. It was good to be back, and even better to be told by them how much they missed me. My one dear lady, after assisting her with her morning routine, said “oh Martha, I don’t know what I’d do without you!”, which made me feel so good inside. We don’t make much, but you cannot put a price on that appreciation right there. Sure, I could cut corners but then I would not be providing the level of care they deserve and pay for, and God sees what I do/don’t do regardless. I do answer to the Highest power, after all. Brings home the “whatsoever you do to the least of these” concept when someone depends on you for simple things like using the bathroom, bathing, getting turned over in bed, dressing etc.
Mom and I had coffee this morning, in our favorite arm chairs in the living room. I love my off days for this, we talk about everything under the sun, one would think we’d run out of things to say! Then it was off to run errands and have lunch. I often look back over my shoulder down that road of life, the one that is a one-way trip, and see now that 6 years ago when my life fell apart, it was a blessing in disguise. I’d prayed to get out of the lifestyle I was living, just didn’t imagine when I asked God to change the hubster’s heart so we could break free of it and I could be done with the swinger crap, that it would get changed in a way that meant I’d be released to pursue better things. That blessing was spending my mom’s last years with her, sharing daily together our frustrations, smiles, laughter and making memories. While talking this morning we touched on the fact that when mom reaches the end stages with this cancer, it could get messy. She wants to remain at home, with hospice caring for her here rather than in a cold, sterile hospital or in a care facility. I realized then that my ending up getting my CNA certification and state level certification was no accident. This was never on my employment radar, I even balked against it, yet now cannot imagine doing anything else. When mom’s time grows really short, she’ll need the very kind of care I’ve been trained to provide. My niece is also state certified, and my sister is the top dog of a long term care facility and hospice nurse. One could say we’ve got this, it’s handled. Who knew when God dragged my sorry butt kicking and screaming down this road into the health care field that one day in the not so distant future it would be needed most on the home front? He works in mysterious ways sometimes. For now, all is pretty good, but we know each day is bringing it closer to the end when along this road will come a bench with her name on it, and she’ll take her place there to wait on the bus from Heaven, and we’ll keep walking on without her. I don’t think about it or dwell on that. I’m not in denial, it simply is not time to be dealing with that. We’ll cross the bridge when we arrive there.
Well those projects won’t hook themselves, so I’m off to join my cat, all stretched out and relaxing on the bed, with my yarn, crochet hook and another cup of coffee! YOU all have a marvelous afternoon!