Friday Confessional


Yep, it is Friday.  TGIF and all that associated hoopla that says we are so grateful for the end of the ‘normal’ work week.

I confess…

I am thankful that today is Friday but only because this is an off day for me.  My schedule is far from normal.  I worked 5 straight days, was off 2, worked one, and now off today before headed back tomorrow to work 2 again.  I’m not a normal person so why have a normal schedule?  I could have worked in a facility that was less physical (in an assisted living facility) and had normal, 5 day, 8 hours a day, but it wasn’t close to home and I love being closer to where I live.  5 minute drive to work and that means less gas.  I see it as a huge financial savings.

I confess…

It is 10:10am, I just got up an hour ago and other than making coffee and having the first cup, I haven’t done a darn thing that is the least bit productive.  I think I am just mentally and emotionally exhausted.  There is the whole thing with mom’s cancer and such, and yesterday we sent dad out 911 from the facility with issues that may or may not be related to his recent back surgery.  I’m struggling financially to get caught up on bills that mounted while I was unemployed, trying to wrap my head around what to do when mom’s gone as far as do we keep the house, down size etc.  My faith is already stretched and I’m trying to get back to regular prayer and bible reading, not easy with this abnormal work schedule.  I’m building my Avon business for the umptenth time, and started a new direct sales company, Jordan Essentials, and well I’m just ready to curl up in a corner and suck my thumb.  Not because it is so much, but because it is so much not working out and the future is a big dark unknown right now.

I confess…

I have allergies or a cold or come such combo of the two.  Residents and aides all seem to have come down with it in the past few days at work so it’s either a bunch of us have serious allergies or we’re all fighting a cold virus.  Oh the joy of working in the open air with lots and lots of people.  You can bet I’ll not miss my flu shot this year.  Stocking up on various essential oils so that during flu season I can boost my immune system and keep the airways clear.

I confess…

I lost yet another pound, 21 down. Loving that little side effect of this job.  It is hard to not shed the pounds when working where I am averaging 17,000-20,000 steps a day.  I still need to utilize the gym the other 3 days a week but lately I am in that “hide in my corner” mode so really not all that enthused with the idea of going anywhere.

I confess…

Despite all the ‘negative’ circumstances I am happy.  Terribly confusing I know.  But I find the silver lining in just about any situation and as soon as I look at the blessings in my life I’m smiling.  The window is open and a cool breeze is blowing across my face while I write this, the coffee is hot, the mailman just came and he scanned a package so someone got goodies in the mail, I can hear cicadas and birds thanks to the open window, my new grandson is chubbing up nicely as he is a good little eater and cute as they come, it is still summer even if not for long, I’m surrounded by strong women who love me and cheer me on when the going gets tough, I’m losing weight and getting fit, we still laugh every day in this crazy household…it’s weird but I’m really very happy.  Maybe now is a good time to go curl up with God and His Word?  🙂

Y’all enjoy your Friday!

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