Friday Confessional


It’s Friday, that means it is time to skip on over to the confessional and get everything out of my system.

I confess…

Okay there was no skipping but everything is definitely out of my system now.  I woke up at 2am with that horrible feeling of “holycrapIamgoingtohurl” and raced off to the bathroom and did just that.  Just when I thought it was safe to fall back asleep, it hit again, and again, and yet again.  It sucked.  I have no idea what was up other than maybe dehydration?  I’ve heard that can do it to you, and I do not drink nearly enough water when I work but I sweat like I’m paid extra to drip all over the place.  I’m sucking down a ton of water now so hopefully I’m past it.  Just to be safe I only had toast so far today.  I also did not go to work, there was no way I could pull out of bed, my gut was still a total mess and I was dizzy.

I confess…

This job is awesome in the sense that my life is improving in many areas.  My health for starters. I pick foods more wisely based on energy provided and healthy vs. crap.  I’m down to 175, a full 19 pound weight loss since the first week of May.  I’m very happy about that and the fact that I pulled out an old pair of “maybe some day these will fit again” jeans and TADA!!!! In them.  I am happy now.  Only 20 more to go to hit the goal weight.  I haven’t been this thin since my divorce.

Having a paycheck for doing something I love is pretty sweet too!

I confess…

My time management skills at work are amazing, but outside of there, they suck.  I really need to pull myself together and do better.  Though I admit right now the one thing I really want to do is manage several hours by taking a long nap.

I confess…

It is one beauty of a day. Windows open, fan blowing, sun shining.  And sadly if we stand on a chair, on our toes and look off on the horizon, winter is waving. UGH.

I confess…

Still cannot move to wrap my head around my mom’s cancer being back.  As my sister said this morning while we sat on my bed talking, keeping it clinical for now.  The emotional side is too hard to face.  It is interesting to me that what I thought was a great relationship and moving with the Badge to Florida and a curse when it fell apart…was really a blessing.  I’d have been miserable living in Sarasota for my mother’s final year.  Yep, funny how looking back over your shoulder things can make perfect sense.  Sis and I will move eventually, we both have had it with snow and cold, but for now, staying put and enjoying it.

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