Peppermint coffee. Gotta love it. And my diffuser filling the air in my room with soothing scents of pure lavender oil, and 31 oil. Mind and heart full of good ‘food’ from church this morning, both the Sunday School lesson and the worship sermon were great. I’m listening to Twila Paris’s album Perennial. Some of my very favorite hymns on are there, like Be Thou My Vision and Amazing Grace. Her voice is so beautiful. And the words of the songs beyond description for me at times. Also listening to a beautiful CD of music from Fernando Ortega, The Shadow Of Your Wings, it is one my friend Janie gave me when I first returned to church 2 years ago. I need to share with her how much that has meant over the past 2 years. The songs and hymns on it are in somewhat different arrangements than what you might traditionally hear in church. And they have helped me many times to quiet my spirit and prepare my heart to pray, read God’s Word, or head out to worship services.
The lesson this morning was really good and spoke to me in Sunday School. One thing that stood out was that we need to be very careful what we desire, as we just might get it and all that goes with it, good and bad. And that what we sow we reap, no question about that. Some call it karma, or “what goes around, comes around”. I prefer to stick with what I know as a believer, God handles vengeance.
New Living Translation (NLT)
14 The wicked conceive evil;
they are pregnant with trouble
and give birth to lies.
15 They dig a deep pit to trap others,
then fall into it themselves.
16 The trouble they make for others backfires on them.
The violence they plan falls on their own heads.
That is one really good passage, and here was another:
New Living Translation (NLT)
21 For the Lord sees clearly what a man does,
examining every path he takes.
22 An evil man is held captive by his own sins;
they are ropes that catch and hold him.
23 He will die for lack of self-control;
he will be lost because of his great foolishness.
Dave pointed out, that if you sow seeds of corn in a field, you will reap corn as that is what grows from corn seeds. If you sow beans, likewise. And if you sow trouble, you will reap that too. Gossip, slander, unkindness, sin….sow those seeds and that is what you will reap in return.
The trouble with seeds is they are tiny at first. You drop a tiny seed no bigger than a corn kernel into the soil, and a full blown corn stalk grows up with many ears filled with many more kernels of corn. Now, think about when you plow trouble and plant seeds of iniquity, like sow gossip seeds, seeds of strife, or other seeds that are not things that will reap blessings, they reap what was sown/planted, in abundance. That tiny seed will grow into a large plant and produce far more than you bargained. This happened in my past. Yes, if you go to the search section of my blogs and search the word “swinger” or “lifestyle” you will get back several posts. I make no pretense that this is somehow a secret, I was a swinger. And I did photos that were not good, and my kids know. My church family knows, my friends and family all know about it. I don’t hide these things because others might learn from my mistakes. It was not a good time in my life that I’m not proud of. But it IS part of who I am today. It goes hand in hand with the song lyrics I posted yesterday. I will not deny the worst you can say about me, if it is true. But I’m not the sum of my mistakes and sin. It is in my past. The consequences will at times be far reaching, but that is not who I am anymore.
Now, I try hard to sow the seeds of good things. If it isn’t nice, I just try not to say it all, and pray about the thought behind what I considered saying. I’m not perfect, but it IS the goal I strive for now. And I pray for those that find it necessary to sow unkindness toward me. Letting go and not being upset by what is said about me is far easier when I do what God says and just pray for them.
“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. …
We are not responsible for what others do, only in how we respond.
36 But I say to you that for every idle word men may speak, they will give account of it in the day of judgment.
I am opting for a Christ like response. Those that talk, tweet, Facebook or verbalize unkind things about others, will one day have to give an account for that. And I will give one for my reaction. My reaction now is to pray for that individual(s) every day. I sleep solid at night because my conscience is clear, my heart isn’t full of bitterness and hatred any longer.