I follow The Single Woman and that is where I was inspired to come up with this year ending purging from my life. The first post (Life’s Changing Landscape: Shelving 2011) covers the how/why, the rest will be the 31 things I am shelving from 2011 that will not go with me into the new year, the full list of posts pertaining to what I’m purging can be found here: Shelving 2011.
In this box will go all the grudges I hold against people who have hurt me.
Some were judgmental regarding posts I’ve made, or my past when I returned to church.
Some were people that stabbed me in the back, threw me under the bus, some broke my heart, or otherwise caused me pain.
I could name the names but that wouldn’t really be of any benefit to anyone. You know who you are and what you did. If you don’t, well all the better. I’ve let all this live rent free in my heart and head and it is time to box it up and leave it here in this year. Everyone gets a clean slate for the new year, bygones are just that, it’s all water under the bridge.
Forgiveness…it isn’t about those that have caused us pain, it is about US. About ME. And I am letting go of it all, it is just not worth the energy to hang on to past inflictions. I’ve learned and accept that some people are just assholes and that is okay. You can be one, outside of my head and heart.
So, into the box goes the grudges, and the void left behind by those is filled with forgiveness and grace. When I am tempted to pull the tape off the seal and open that box, instead I will pray for that person.