Shelving 2011 ~ Box #4


I follow The Single Woman and that is where I was inspired to come up with this year ending purging from my life. The first post (Life’s Changing Landscape: Shelving 2011 covers the how/why, the rest will be the 31 things I am shelving from 2011 that will not go with me into the new year, the full list of posts pertaining to what I’m purging can be found here: Shelving 2011.

Before I launch into the boxing up of #4, I wanted to pat myself on the back.  I indeed trimmed the number of folks I follow on Twitter  down to 55.  It feels  so good not to have to scroll past stuff I don’t care about or simply do not have time for at this point in my life!

Many are the times I’ve kept clothes thinking “oh one day maybe I’ll wear that…” only to have things in my closet that I do not need nor will I.  Right now there still hangs in my walk in closet, attire I will never wear again.  Things that I cherished at a different time in my life but are no longer things I would be caught dead wearing.  Some is intimate apparel that the ex bought for me, and I’ll not wear that for anyone else, other stuff is clothing that is out dated or stuff as I said, from days gone by and a way of life that I no longer participate in.  It is time to say good bye to those items.

Their  presence is disturbing to me.  I thought keeping them would be a good thing, a reminder of the person I am NOT to be, and a way of life that I feel is wrong on more levels than I can find to call right.  I thought it would help me to stay focused.  Instead it is a constant reminder of things I’d like to forget, the feeling of being used, like a blow up doll, and discarded.  They give negative vibs that make me feel dirty and cheap.

So, in the process of shelving things those items are out of here.  Almost the final pieces of a time in my life I prefer to forget about.  Other pieces (and some people) will be boxed in the coming days, but this is one more step toward eliminating things I feel are holding me back from growing into who I am meant to be.

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2 thoughts on “Shelving 2011 ~ Box #4

  1. Good for you! I think for awhile, reminders can be powerful motivators, but you do have to recognize when those reminders have become cement shoes and just let them sink away. You can’t fly with cement shoes on.

    I just did a big sweep on my own closet and decided that whether it fit or not, if it didn’t look good or I didn’t feel good about myself in it – it had to go. In typical female fashion, this included a lot of ‘skinnier me’ clothes I’d hoped to get my ass back into and ‘fat clothes’ I never want to be in again. But also, some ‘just don’t feel good in that’ or ‘so & so bought me that and I just don’t want to think of them when I put it on’ things. It was sad to see the button-fly jeans I met my husband in go – but let’s face it, they were out of style anyway. As I got into the process of letting go, it started to feel pretty good to just honor who I want to be right now – and how I feel right now – and the size my ass really is right now. Be in my own space in this time. I hope you find the same peace.

  2. I hear ya and feel ya…tho on a much smaller scale, of course. I too, am trying hard to put that time of my life behind me. Unfortunately, I am alone in that effort. Well, maybe on a much larger scale in retrospect. Sheesh:( Just saddens me so very much on so many levels. All on me…all on me.

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