I jumped a tad too soon when I decided to pull off the dating scene. It is so easy to get my head stuck in the fantasy clouds when flowers and beautiful words are given. And as much as I want to find the one that holds the key to my garden gate, it cannot be forced open. I thought Romeo might hold a key, but it is not the case. The chemistry simply is not there, no key will appear to him. 😦
The keys are forged from chemistry, and my love is the magic that coats them and allows them to turn in the lock. That chemistry cannot be made from all the wishing and wanting in the world, it is something that is there or is not..and again in this case, it simply is not. I wanted very much for it to be, because all the right things were said and done. It is frustrating to me, I cannot believe or accept that only 3 men in this world have had a key to my heart, and been able to unlock the gate.
Mr. Wonderful still has his, and sometimes comes and sits beside me on the bench to talk, telling me what I need to hear rather than the things I want to listen too. He is my best friend (until I find the man I am searching for), and will always be welcome to visit my garden while I am single. But he is not the one I will grow old with. The Superhero’s key is beginning to lose its glow, the magic is fading fast, and soon he too will no longer be able to enter the garden, which is sad as he only stepped through the gate and went no further. The only other one to hold a key, Prince Charming, his no longer works in the lock at all, he is banished from the garden forever without ever having tried it in the lock during those 22 years.
The gate is locked and sealed tight for now, centuries stand guard to protect my heart, and the search continues for the fourth, and hopefully final one that holds its key….