My sister has this awesome top that
I have kinda taken ownership of she lets me borrow that looks great on me. It got a thumbs up from my brother when he saw me in it a few weeks ago. When I wore it to court for the divorce hearing and then into the office, my then boss whistled and made several comments about how great I looked dressed up. Of course that is more likely because I usually wore jeans and a company polo shirt to work every day so me dressed up feminine in any way was going to be a noticeable improvement. It is fitting and symbolic to me that the shirt I wore to end my fairy tale, would be the same one I am wearing to begin a new one. This top has come to be known around the Diva Den as the first date shirt. Mostly because I almost always wear it on a first date. It is very feminine, I look damn good in it if I do say so myself.
Yesterday my horoscope read:
Your ruling planet Venus may bring sweetness into your life today in a way that is fresh and different. However, the opportunity you have for pleasure comes at a high price now. Keep in mind that your desire for simplicity means that you may have to set aside previous priorities. But don’t bother trying to get approval from a friend, unless you’re seeking to deepen that particular relationship. Remember, communicating your feelings isn’t all fun and games; it takes hard work and an open heart.
Shortly after I read it, there was a knock at the front door, and my favorite florist (how did he know this???) was there with a delivery of lavender roses for me. Something ‘fresh’ and ‘different’ as my horoscope said. Fresh as in fresh cut flowers, my very favorite flower! And ‘different’ because receiving flowers just is not a real common occurrence for me. I don’t recall ever receiving my favorite flowers, so it was totally unique. I found it quite special, as someone is definitely paying close attention as they read through my hundreds of blog posts.
The sender is someone I’ve talked to via emails and texts, but had yet to meet in person. We have much in common in our relationship needs and our personalities. There was definite chemistry there in writing. I know, people can paint themselves to be a lot of things, but sometimes you just know you are seeing the real heart of a person when they share about themselves. Not a single red flag has flown as we have gotten acquainted on the dating site, so I gave him my blog page to explore. He knew he was seeing the real me as he has spent a great deal of time reading and learning…he knows my heartaches, my frustrations, my likes and dislikes, and even my glaring faults. And he too has a passion for writing and expressing himself through his words (read the Secret Garden posts). He doesn’t mind at all what I write about, even regarding him. He doesn’t want someone he can clip their wings and cage in order to tame, but rather someone he can enjoy their free spirit and watch soar, and even fly beside. We both know what it is to have our fairy tale implode and have our hearts completely shattered by the one we thought was forever, and the next one we fell in love with, and we’re both ready to try love again in spite of the scars we carry.
When the sender asked me to meet him in person or talk on the phone last night, I opted for meeting. There was just something about him that made me want it to be in person the first time I heard his voice. And what a voice it is…deep and oh so pleasant to listen too. Strong hands yet with such a gentle touch. No red flags here either, my gut is not telling me to run like hell, I was quite relaxed and content to spend time with him.
I made a decision to turn off my profile on the dating sites (on ones where that is an option), and I’m not going on anymore first dates for now. The ‘first date shirt’ is going into retirement, well as far as being worn for first dates anyway. There is chemistry here. In his eyes I saw much I want to explore. His secret garden intrigues me, is calling to me to come see if I have the key to open the gate, as he is hoping his key fits mine, as within the garden is the heart and soul. Time will tell, and we’ll go slowly and see what develops.
I may even begin a new thread, since The Dating Diaries really may not be quite right for this. I’m thinking something along the lines of The Secret Garden Journals of Romeo and Juliet.