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Pondering With A Purpose – Balance

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Feeling like pondering and sharing? Click the icon and link up!  Today we are pondering “Balance”.

Balance - how do I keep my life in balance?

WOW that is a tough one.

The past 3 years my life has been anything but in balance as a whole or on average.  It went completely off balance about this time 3 years ago when the ex wanted a divorce.  For a while I was mentally and emotionally completely off balance from one extreme to another.  But things did settle down and once I moved out a routine was established.

I am probably a tad OCD in that I need a routine in order to function at my best.  I am also ADD enough to need and appreciate a break in routine for the sake of my sanity and to keep life interesting.  Some areas of my life I need complete order, everything staying the same, on a schedule, neat and tidy etc.  Other areas I need to be rapid fire changes, flashing lights, jump around, P-A-R-T-Y etc.  Confused? You should see inside my mind, it is one confusing place.

Routines of balance I need/like:

TV shows that I watch on certain nights of the week and plan my evening life around:

Blue Bloods
CSI
CSI:NY
Criminal Minds
The Walking Dead
Sons of Anarchy
Scandal
Nashville
Once Upon A Time

These are the shows I watch and don’t like to miss.  When I do miss one I don’t feel balanced until I’ve caught up on past episodes.  This means when two programs are on at the same time, I have scheduled time to watch them on Prime Time On Demand.  You can count on me being in front of the TV and refusing to answer my phone (replying to texts during commercials only) if a show I watch is airing.  Reruns totally mess me up and this winter break thing over the holidays, or a week off because something else airs, just throws me out of balance.  Same with football…love me some Bengals (yes I am fully aware they suck, I’ve been a fan since I was a little girl and their inception).  During the bi week I get messed up, or if the game is at 4pm instead of 1pm, or they are on Monday night.  It takes me a few weeks to adjust in the off season to no football game to watch.

Work is a balance of routine and chaos.  Routine in that I need a certain environment, things in a certain place and systems to get things done.  Chaos in that I like constant changes to people, tasks etc.  Weird, I know.  Bring on the ever changing assignments but move my laptop or calculator and I’ll staple your hand to the side of your body.

At home, my room is my refuge and haven.  Everything is always in a particular order.  I tend to hang there most of the time because things are always put away and I need that sense of order.

My love life? What love life?  I need that balanced too, hence right now I am simply single and enjoying that.  I am not prepared at the moment to balance personal life and time with a love relationship.  Right now I need my space and that is working well.  I do not want to invest the time and energy on a relationship, I have too many other things I want to achieve, get in order, and balance in my life.  I don’t want or have time for a relationship.

Friendships/entertainment – these are good too, in moderation.  Too much time out having fun and my balance gets messed up.

Needless to say, this past 2 weeks have been rough for me.  Starting a new job, and hanging out every evening with the boss while brain storming etc, has made it hard for me.  I need to reign things in a bit so I have balance.  I love getting out and doing things, but I also need my ME time.  My time to think, process, de-stress. Time to crochet and work on projects for my upcoming Etsy shop.  I need time to focus on my Avon business too.

I did really well being married to a firefighter.  Having ME time ever 3rd day was good.  I enjoy my own company and solitude in chunks of time throughout my week.  I NEED that in order to stay balanced mentally and I don’t apologize for turning down invitations to do things in order to have that necessary quiet time to myself.

Lately I do a lot of things in spurts, lacking balance.  I really NEED to find and achieve a balance across the board.  I just need to do it in small sections, an area at a time or I get over whelmed.

10 Things I’ve Learned In 2012

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10 Things I’ve Learned This Year

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  1. Sometimes people are going to let me down, take sides in something that is none of their concern (like my divorce), because they are closer to the other person.  They may say things at the time that are hurtful and even mean where I’m concerned.  They may never come get  my side of the story.  But it’s okay to forgive them, because forgiveness isn’t about them, it’s about me.  Me healing, me getting rid of that little seed that grows bitterness and isolation from folks that would otherwise love me.  And in the end, maybe, just maybe, their comments and criticisms were  justified, as my actions or behavior at times might have been less than what it should have been.  Perhaps I brought it on myself, perhaps not.  Either way, I cannot expect perfection from anyone until I myself am perfect.  And that work is still in progress. Continue reading →

Coffee Thoughts…

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Sitting here enjoying a cup of coffee and thinking over my weekend.  I really hate when the weekend comes to an end.  It isn’t that I don’t like working, I just enjoy my time off so much too, and the weekends just never seem long enough.  I am learning to really relish each minute of each day and embrace life, and finding that the more I do that happier I am.

Friday evening my baby girl came to visit, which was exceptionally nice as I never feel I get to see enough of my kids.  She concerns me because she looks so tired, but she has been sick herself with this flu/cold bug all the past week.  And between being in school all day and working in the evenings I think she is just getting a bit run down.  She was sporting one of the pink shirts the Delhi Fire Department is wearing for October for breast cancer awareness.  I know a lot of departments are doing this, which I find rather cool.  My brother made sure we all were able to buy the  shirts in the Diva Den too.  Real men DO wear pink, and most look great in that color.

We’ve been on a quest in the Diva Den to find a particular Highlander Grogg coffee.  The one we like was served up at Perk On The Pike before it closed.  This one has a slight butterscotch aroma and taste.  After Perk closed we were able to get it through The Front Porch Coffee House, but then they closed too!  That depresses me, I love going to a cozy coffee house and miss my Saturday mornings at Perk with my sister, crocheting and munching on stuff that was not real healthy and sipping coffee.  Mom finally found a place in Mt. Healthy, The College Hill Coffee Company.  This place not only carries our coffee flavor but it is flat out adorable!  I have determined that I need to frequent that one, even though it is a bit of a drive.

I’ve gone a complete week without going to Chipotle, I cannot believe it.  Mostly it is a money issue, just don’t want to be spending the cash at the moment with trying to get Christmas shopping done for my kids while I am still employed.  I might have to treat myself on Friday when we get paid again.

I’m actively looking for another job at the moment.  Once the season is over for out door painting I’ll be looking at being laid off and that won’t work, I have too many bills  to pay.  Hopefully I can find something soon, that carries benefits too, as this flying without health insurance is scary.

Best  part of my weekend was getting to spend time with Mr. TSASA last night.  We let him join the Divas for wine night, and then I got him all to myself out on the deck, which was nice.  We talked quite a lot, but I’m not sharing the discussion.  He also got to go where no man has gone before…to my room.  :)   Okay so nothing naughty went on (only because others were home) but I did get a very nice kiss and Pixel let him hold her, which was also rather unusual.  I was bummed when the night ended. But again, relishing the time I do have and enjoying it very much.

Laundry is all caught up now, bedding changed, room cleaned, we even cleaned the house today.  Dad came to watch the game with us and have dinner. I am growing very concerned about him, he seems to be declining in health.  Sadly the weather is going to shift in coming weeks and we won’t be able to get him out as much.

Coming up this week are all the normal memes and hops I participate in, and my own periodic posts.  Wine and Cheese will be back on Wednesday, I was not feeling well enough to put together anything this past week.  I’m also going to be posting a book review.  Not my norm but the author asked me if I’d like to do one so I am reading it (great book!) and will be posting a review near the end of the week or Saturday.

I feel an early bedtime coming my way, though I know that once I  close my eyes the weekend will be over and the next thing I am aware of will be the alarm clock rudely pulling me from my sleep to start the work week.  I’ll likely stay awake as long as I can for that reason alone, to make it last just a few more minutes.